Thursday, August 31, 2006
Teacher's day celebrations
A day of great performances which lots of us enjoyed, lame games that we ran away from and a particularly weird rendition of songs which the respecting lot sat through and shuddered in time with each other... in one word : fun.
Now for a post-mortem. The dances instantly made me stop regreting not sitting with the class. Had a *much* better view up in front. All the performances would have made getting up early and coming to school almost worth it, if not for the rope game. Glad i escaped from that. And "OMG!!!!" who would've thought that mr Seet and mr Yong were going to cross dress!!! Nearly scared me shitless when the Isetan paper bag was removed and mr Seet sorta grinned. Yahh!! And the balloons used as fake boobs. I think i'm gonna have nightmares.
Skipping the soulful rendition of Inside Your Heaven and Wind Beneath My(or was it yours?) Wings, the mechanical warbling of Smoke on the Water, we come to the seemingly nonsensical play involving some LOTR, X-men and Vj teachers mashed-up into a lip-syncing parody. Wasn't much of a storyline, though the Pink Pansy's prancings did up the appeal cred.
Rushed back to VS only to find that most (almost all, except maybe like 8) of the teachers have left for the combined buffet lunch at Vj. Had to return, and in the rain too. Meeting your ex-teachers is always the same. Say "Merry Christmas!" (-___-''', i know...) and try to get them to change their mind so resolutely set on not treating us to lunch.
None of the teachers complied, although i have a feeling they would if we had asked a group of them instead, so had to settle lunch ourselves (4D '05). Funny how things always turn out wrong. Terence gave us a choice of KFC, Burger King, Foodcourt or Pastamania. And we ended up in Yoshinoya. After which all of us set out for pool. Extremely depressing bout of games. The only time i won was when Zz took 8 in the wrong pocket.
Rested for a while in Mac's after that. Forced Terence to use 760 of his 1135 points to treat us (only fair, he got the all rounded student award, which makes me wonder... he isn't that round..) to nuggets. And that bunch of imbeciles took advantage of the fact that i was buying a drink to leave me with only 2 nuggets while each of the rest had 3. @#*! Saturday is just around the corner, just you temes wait. I'll (quoting Johnathan) pinch your 'na's till you cry.
Played a bit of truth or dare. A perfectly innocent game which involved Terence shouting "AAHH!! WHERE'S MY COCK???" in the male washroom. Courtesy of yours truly. I could be such a devil at times. You're lucky we had to leave, Terence, your next dare would have been having you to pretend to fellate using 10 straws. Not for the young eyes there at Mac's...
I didn't go back to my primary school, never did. I remember, the final years there. I was sitting next to her. Someone i always had to bicker with. Someone i always had to prove i was better than. Someone who always won in the languages no matter what. A very cute someone. Someone whom parting with defied all truth to the saying "parting is such sweet sorrow". There wasn't anything sweet;it was bitter, terribly bitter. Though it was partially numbed by my lack of age, it still did hurt. I remember not performing that well in the first year of VS, most noticeably in mother tongue ( F9, E8, F9,F9). I guess i'd gotten over it, but i still avoid that school lest i'm distracted again. Cannot afford to be distracted, Promos hurtling towards Earth at like the Speed of light.
Brinjal... Soya bean... Maybe they'll all come back someday, the lost times spent just secretly gazing at you.
remember [7:20 PM]
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
of This and That
Last day of school! Yay!!! Who cares?!!!
Really. Aren't we being fooled? There isn't anything you could consider a holiday at this stage of life. Jc is like contracting a terminal disease, nothing for you to do but live it through. And hope the end is quick and painless. Sure, some of us would fight this illness, trying to overcome it, but that's akin to trying to score for minor tests, it really doesn't affect the end.
Then again, in this world full of people like us who look through windows with eyes shut, it really doesn't matter what happens outside, we're too busy trying to look at the mole underneath the eyelid (Or for some of us, indians ****ing). So much so, we don't notice the great big asteroid coursing towards us, threatening to turn us into mere smears, staining the perfect backdrop against which this play (Act II: Education) is staged. Until it burns off our eyelids, that is. (bye bye mole...)
Have you ever noticed the bald/balding birds in VJ (reminds you of a certain person...) . Isn't that enough proof of the stress we undergo? It's so much, it's rubbing off on the birds. Too much aren't we? Making those poor creatures lose "hair" over our troubles.
sex : procreation & recreation
remember [6:08 PM]
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
nothin really
"If you're looking for trouble, that's me."
"Not me? Then it must be that you're meeting my friend here."
"It's name is 'Your Maker' ..."
remember [11:34 PM]
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wad guest lecturer?
Last h3 lecture of the year, and they haad to screw it. Come on, who needs to know about nanotech and medicine? All we have to do is to just surf the net right? It's not that the lecturer was (is) viet, after all that accent kept me awake half the time, stomach cramping from suppressed laughter.
If only the silent screams of the enlightened could be heard.
Why do we always do stupid stuff like studying what we will never need? Stuff like econs.
WHy do we keep quiet and stare placidly at the (maths) lecturer, insipidly droning in the background, when we want to shout, scream, yell profanities at her for trying to chip away at our lives, our youth; when we want to run, leap, roll around in the field, pushing all concerns to the dark absyss in the deepest recesses of our minds, placing all studies and homework on indefinite hiatus?
Reasons are for those with eyes wide shut, we want what's inherently ours. Choice.
remember [11:43 PM]
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
meant to be
I don't want to, i never will it to be but i still fell asleep. Damn, i not going to survive chem h3. And somehow, i'm not sure if i really care. Feel like i'm living a lie, can't help but feel that the part of me that wants to exel, to rise above all, is but an alien entity separate from the rest of me, that which wants to take everything easy. Am i slowly being invaded from within? By what? Myself?... *shudders*
remember [11:04 PM]
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Chem soc
Last Chem soc meeting of the season... all good things must come to an end, no matter what. The best way to end something, as suggested by almost everyone, and with that i concur, is with a bang. And bang we did.
No... not that bang you hentai, with a smoke bomb salute. Armed with previous experience of success, this bunch of chem soc members set out to turn this last meeting into a disaster. But oooohh... what a beautiful disaster.
Well, at least now we know that the bombs are not just for show, they work. Very well indeed. It was sort of inevitable that synapse was smoked for more than 5 minutes (@#!* any bugger who'd used that to escape could have easily pulled it off. viva la chem soc products) and that the table would char, but (there's always a "but") we most certainly had fun. Yes, even when cleaning up this disastrous success of a mess.
Econs class is a great time to dream... building sand castles in the air. Those that crumble to dust and land on your face, burying you under embarrassment when the teacher asks "Who are dreaming of this time?" rather loudly. I've yet to be a victim of that, there's a first for everthing i guess.
40 days to promos, eeeexciting...
remember [6:37 PM]
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of Reunion and "OMG!!"
Having mrs toh as our chem tutor is one of the things we can look forward to in the next-to-bleary live in VJ. Serious. She's a fun-loving teacher, not that you could discern from first glance. Can't wait till she lectures us next year. Provided we promote.
Why the hell are we blogging as a collective?
ok ok...
Just got back the lecture test result. Damn it, my percentage fell... same mistake as last time i think ... "Calculator Malfunction". Mrs toh is such a fast marker... unlike some other teachers... Ma'am, you have my respect ( when you inverted "toh" to get "hot" self-proclaiming to be the cause of T25's stuffiness, i think the air-conditioning came back right then.)
Two close brushes with the canal, XL's frisbee had. Almost enough to make one wonder if he has some other-worldly connections...
Pre-Birthday celebrations for our very own "da ming"@ LJS. Ming famili reunion is interesting, everytime i see "xiao xiao ming", there'll be changes to the appearance. This time was the specs. Haha, don't mug too much...
i wanna have kid(s) before i turn 20....
remember [10:46 PM]
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hmmm...
whoo... no more tests! Living life like there's no tomorrow.... But of course there's a tomorrow. That's one of those facts of life we can't run away from. Along with the fact that i've a high sex drive.
-_-'''....
Life goes on i guess, with or without sex.
I'm looking up at the stained sky
so my tears don't well up and fall
Why can't people live
as they wish
I don't want a weak heart that can't cry
or the strength not to cry
I'll search for a shooting
star to cast my wishes on but
dawn is coming too soon
and I won't be able to find one
There's never a day that I have
to remember you because
I never for a moment forgot you
Whenever I'm sad I have
a habit of saying I'm ok
After something stopped
that day, no matter
how much I pray
I can't see a single star
I want to see you, I want to see you
Your smiling face in my memory is
just too kind.
There's never a day that I have
to remember you because
I never for a moment forgot you
I want to see you, I want to see you
Your smiling face in my memory is
just too kind.
-Hanabi by Ayumi Hamasaki
remember [9:56 PM]
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
you loser
Touche. My, my... we have a really moronic visitor, one who's prone to leaving seemingly incoherent comments. But, i guess as all losers do, this one tries to change the topic everytime it backfires. Yeah.. this is sweet... i'm keeping the comments on this tagboard as my trophy. Definitely sweet. That is, to have a mentally unstable visit this blog. "Go get laid buster!!"
Wish i could fast forward my life... skip chem lecture test, skip A-levels, skip everything. And keep replaying my death.
when the time comes, would you? when it comes to the crunch, do you run, cowardly but safe, or do you face it, undeniably brave but possibly stupid?
remember [11:01 PM]
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
over
Being the first group to take the SPA exams gives me the nagging feeling that i'm like a lab rat. Nope, i'm not disclosing anything here. For those unfortunate enough to share this school with me, i suggest you burn your SPA notes, mix it into your beverage, stir well (important step), drink it all down, and mentally lash yourself for believing me.
Econs essay... by tomorrow... why do i bother with a subject i'll never score or at least do reasonably well in?
learn to defy yourself before you defy others- the 1st rule of defiance, handbook of school dropouts
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
of Fate and pesky Bugs
Chem mock SPA is fun man. Lucky i'm skill B this week. Haha, and i nearly melted my boiling tube. Who'd have expected a hard glass pyrex boiling tube would deform under high heat? i thought they were manufactured just for that purpose. But as Fate'll have it, i dropped it... well i guess it was destined to die by my hand. Believe me, the pleasure was all mine.
Bio Spa tomorrow. No assembly. Hope i wake up on time.
You should know what it's like playing a bridge hand with zero points. An occassional idiot like you would choose , with lots of bravado (so much it befuddles your mind), to refuse to reshuffle. This is one game you'll never win. You know who you are. I pity you.
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of SPA and Lecture assessmants
Oh man, just realised it's going to be helluva hectic 2-3 weeks. Chem (mock) SPA, Bio (actual) SPA, Chem lecture assessment, in chronological order. Hell has never been more inviting. Not if you consider the countless other tests, assessments, practicals, blah, blah...
And i'm supposed to get that econs essay done... after 3 weeks of conveniently forgetting that a subject labelled "economics h2" ever existed. Must buck up.. Mind over matter.. yeah right. I've been trying, but i can't seem to be able to will my hand to pick up that pen. I envision an interesting econs tutorial tomorrow, half the class wouldn't have "brought it". That excuse s getting old... maybe i'll say my dog ate it. But i don't have a dog...
Funny thing is, while us students are being buried literally 6 feet under, under our school work, some infidels are still quarrelling. What Shi'ite, Sunni, Windi, Cloudi, Raini, whatever the fuck. Why aren't they gone yet? Stupid ceasefire... i know i'm not supposed to swear but i'm damn pissed. Some freaking deprived teme leaving undesirable comments..
remember [10:15 PM]
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sun 13 august
Stupid stress gene on chromosome 10, tsk, troublesome little piece of shit. Why are we born this way? As homo Sapiens, as pathetic under-evolved bipeds. Maybe one day random mutation could take care of stress, if it's a genetic "disorder"... But if natural selection made it so that all of us have this "gene", must be a good thing right? I luuuuv u god.
Come to think of it, maybe stupidity is genetic. Maybe it'll explain why a certain bunch of humans are warring over intangible things like.. uhh.. religion? Doesn't matter anyway, maybe this selection pressure could wipe out stupidity from the face of Earth. Maybe. Hopefully. One shouldn't hope so much, but there's always the glimmer, the slight chance, the adrenalin rush when it finally happens.
there's no wrong or right; there's only what feels good, and what doesn't.
remember [10:15 PM]
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
post national day
Seriously dude... National day parade certainly seems better when you're fully awake. Besides that, I wonder how Gurmit made it to S'pore Idol on time, i'm quite sure i saw him still in the stadium. Must be the camera's angle... it's not possible to get there in under 10 minutes, right?
Hmm... next year's parade would be on some floating platform... not advisable ya? Since National day always falls near the 7th lunar month. Accidents do happen. Accidents. Enough of superstition.
Time i blogged about something international, so here goes, the stupid war. Okay, lets try some maths. Lebanon has a population of around 4 million, i think. In the last 4 weeks, approximately 1000 were killed. Thats 1 000/4 000 000 x 100% = 2.5% gone. So much for their tanks. The isreali estimated that this war would end in around 30 days. At the rate they're doing it,
1 000 takes 4 weeks,
4 ooo ooo would need 4 000 000/1 000 x 4 weeks = 16 000 weeks
Man, that's like 307 years. Factor in the fact that lebanese are not lesbians, id est, they reproduce, this war is going to take forever. Now you wonder why they had created nuclear weapons in the first place, it's convenient ya?
I guess all we can hope for now is that those Jewish bastards can finally start learning how to count, gain enlightenment that little missles and shells are not going to do much, and launch some ICBMs!!!
remember [11:47 PM]
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collaboration?
Normally, a half day would be a cause for joy... not this one. OK, ok, not that bad, but i'd rather go play pool...
ITE college East is a great place. Well, size-wise and facilities-wise. And, their national day celebration was still on when we got there. Half the students were long gone, but the enthusiasm shown by the rest could have put VJ to shame. Either that, or they're just some mindless idiots blindly following intructions... This case, it's hard to tell which is which.
Sigh... Mendokusai... "To take or not to take?" that's the question. It's tempting that an someone is as interested as you are (and possibly the whole pw group) in materialising the current project. Hell, i would give lots to see that baby "in person", cuts out a lot of "visualising", but what lies beneath this supposed collaboration... and what's underneath the underneath? Presuming there's something there, i sure hope not.
Going back on fri, not bad. At least the food there is nice, can't say worse for the service. Maybe because we're outsiders, but hey, who cares right? i'm on the receiving end... With the unnaturally large "mud" population in this institute, i wonder how badly business suffers during Ramadan...
No man's an island, but you, woman, are my country. Guess why i'm feeling patriotic?
remember [5:06 PM]
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one more day...
One more day, just one more day... Lots of things can happen ya?
Looking back pn today, i didn't attend any lesson. Except chem and maths lecture. Both in which i was half or fully asleep. Mostly fully. Damn, it's about time i kicked this habit of mine. It's going to leave a bad impression sooner or later. Hope it's soon, then i'll stop sleeping in lectures. Nope, not making sense here, but who cares?
Teacher-bashing again. No, i don't feel guilty. Not this time, and i'm sure you'll agree... That maths lecturer. I pity her class(es)... must be extremely tough having to take her crap on a weekly basis.. Well, i don't know her name, i've not been awake long enough to take notice... but one thing for sure, her lectures are worth skipping. Forget about free-riding the air-conditioning, not worth it. Chances are, the students around you would be so ****ed up that temperatures rise till uncomfortable levels. Come to think of it, it takes a really, really screwed teacher to complain (not sure, sounds like whining to me) to the students. Now, now, it's not our fault ya? Kids will be kids, can't blame us for distracting others, being rambunctious, being, essentially, us. Just raw, unconcealed us. Mr kwok didn't have such a big problem accepting that... Then again, he's male.
Shopping today with the sane part of the class... beginning to believe in the wonders of retail therapy again. But i didn't buy anything...
remember [8:15 PM]
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really?
It's already tomorrow... no wait, it's today. Oh well, whatever. Don't feel like sleeping. As they always say " save it for the morning after...", I shall, Boring lectures on monday. Same old, same old. Not even a same old brand new, just old... VJ was always a school for and of muggers, now more than ever, maybe next year too. You can't help but at least attempt to do something productive, however useless, however devoid of ability you may be, when teachers are 'gently' reminding you the promos are drawing closer, and closer. Almost as though the are discretely, at the back of their possibly twisted mind, rubbing their hands in perversed glee, hoping that some of us will fail, which we invariably do.
Here i am, badmouthing teachers, again... i think. All those 'virtuous', hardworking fish-lensed hunchback 'geniouses' would think i'm dumb. Why am i not studying then? Why sleep during lectures? Why blame teachers?
Why are they sooo nosy huh? It's school! Not a mortuary! We have lives, and we shouldn't throw it away so carelessly into the dustbins in that compound. And don't try to litter, you might get fined, or worse, forced to don that luminuous green vest and do some unmentionable stuff... Aren't we allowed to have fun, socialize, maybe seek out prospective soulmates (highly improbable) WHILE absorbing knowledge, developing skills, attaining wisdom? I guess we could do just that. Provided we have 36 hrs a day.
Life is short, why do we have to waste it? All those **** about carpe "diam", seize the day... Why not the nights too? Why sleep? Why work? Why exist? If all studebts rebelled, i mean, really, all of them, would school stop?
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
i dun wan h3...
Ahhhh... i'm seriously screwed. I just found out, after bear-bear gently woke me up after today's h3 chem lecture, that 'ray' and 'afternoon lecture' are simply elements in complement sets. Sigh... and i really thought i was awake. Seems that i fell unwittingly (not too unwillingly) into the trap of the Z-mon a.k.a. Sandman. Maybe i'll make friends with it soon.
PW is getting on my nerves. Really. I've ran out of ideas enough times to improve my minesweeper score for intermediate to around 70 seconds. Not really that fast, considering my mum's high score for beginner is .. 3 seconds. Now that's pure beginner's luck.
one thing to revel in though, national day holi'week' is round the corner.
thank you for being there in boring lectures... at least i had something to look at..
remember [11:28 PM]
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