Friday, September 29, 2006
residual emotion..
There ever was someone who haunted half the waking moments of life, sometimes the dreams. Someone who somehow cause the surroundings to become stuffy, sort of like a sauna. But amidst all that heat, the whole body freezes. Mind screams in silent defiance, contradicting the urge to turn away. Can't laugh, nor cry. Can't smile, neither frown. What does one do under such circumstances?
That, was 5 years ago...
Residual emotion. Does it exist? Could that explain why 5 years on, i'm stuck in blissful debilation near her, even if it's only for 6 seconds...
Does that explain how the heck it can happen twice?
Arghh!! Kick me, hit me, stick a six-inch blade into me... anything to extract me from this warped reality of a dream. She's too beautiful for this to be a nightmare...
Maybe i'll just stick to the conventional pinch, just in case
"OWW..." Ok, it's real, it's real... i'm so screwed...
the world through Reality's blue specs. Monochrome, even the Sun shines blue. Blue ink on blue sheets, mug as i might, can't see the results. Boredom's blue, so is Depression.
Makes one wonder how a myopic view of life's colours compares to perfect vision of her blues...
remember [11:58 PM]
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
GP
Wahhh.... uneventful day la..... so gonna die for General Paper. None of the essay topics were linked to war or religion. And the freaking compre was like a malay passage. Same alphabets, wrong order. Who cares about what universal library?? Wake up!
Red cresent today... sooo diabolical. I bet she's having a good time at the expense of our demise. Damn you. How's one supposed to promote with such papers?? Hope the rest are easier.
remember [9:35 PM]
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
last day
Slacking too much nowadays... my table's still not in a shape for me to study in. Though somehow, i don't feel that that's the crux. Why do distractions always appear when exams draw near?? Study has ceased to be a matter of choice...
Twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder...
When will the haze disappear (which dumbass burning forests this time?)
What's coming out for SPA (Heating... hmmm)
What Pluto is (Planet or not? 9 sounds better then 8... more the merrier)
If there'll be another terrorist attack ( NO... please? not during exam time..)
Wen Yuan intend to break that news ( nicely?... precaution 1: Wear full body armour)
When this self-induced insomnia is going to end.
To effectively remedy a situation, one must first find the root, then will the administered action cure the problem, not just cover-up the mess. But will all this matter if there's no cure?
Cheerful... must stay cheerful.
Sing a song of sixpence a bucket full of flies,
four and twenty bastards stuck in a lie...
of course there are solutions... 1) end this life, 2) forget, 3) Wish for the best... Yepp, easier said than done.
remember [12:52 AM]
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Friday, September 08, 2006
F**K
Hate.Parents.
remember [12:08 PM]
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
Visit Mrs Poon!
Only 4 turned up for frisbee. Kinda sad. No matter, one can't eat sadness, no point producing too much of it. Practicing curved throws... 4 of us quite proficient in it after today. Alas, there can only be three musketeers, three blind mice... etc, so, Mao mao was the unfortunate 'keeper'. If you think this doesn't hold any sense, there may be hope for you yet.
Still had a little time to spend doing nothing after 'training', so went for lunch at Sumo House. Not sure why, but when one tries to add 'VS boys' to 'Lunch', there'll always be a side product next to the main 'Gobbling'. It's called 'talking cokk'.
Went over to John's abode (damned bad luck, lost a hearts game and 2 bridge hands. Must be those acursed chain letters/smses) before popping down to Mrs Poon's. It's like she never ages. Maybe women stop aging after they're 60 years old. Interesting... She was going to catch a movie (Singapore Dreamin) so the oh-so-rare get-together was broken up. Partially because mao mao tuition too.
Makes me wonder, why don't i bump into mrs Poon frequently? We're just across the street from each other. I guess our schedules don't match, much like someone else i saw in KFC(where we went to after leaving), though i'm pretty sure we live within 1 km of each other...
People do mature, people do change and i guess i have too, so have others, that person in particular i guess. But a bright yellow hairband?? Too flashy ya, even if it shows off that widow's peak.
remember [7:18 PM]
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Bio olympiad : 3rd day
Mental training over, tomorrow's physical. Frisbee, yeeaaahhh....
Seriously, seriously hate taking 31 after 8 am. Sheesh, the amount of ITE students!! They created a mental vacuum so strong i nearly became dumb, i'm still a little dazed... Just kidding, that'll never happen. My skull's a non-permeable, stress resistant barrier.
Okay... so i was late for bio olympiad training, and quite pissed at that.
Celebrations @ da da ming's "mansion"! Two large pizzas (cheese lover's & super supreme... musta have costed a bomb), drinks, TCS (talk cokk session), smokin' slice of ice-cream cake and an on-the-spot-handmade gift. Oh yeah, and some background music. And some soccer, frisbee, bridge. And magic tricks (haha, yep... courtesy of yours truly) So what if the actual day is 5 days from now? I'll get ya a gift, don't worry... not that you'll read this anyway.
I have this odd feeling that S'pore Idol's been infected with Hard Gay fever or something. Dude... Hady Mirza did that "HOOO" pose and the two host were full of "Hooo!!", "Say say say" and "OKayyyy...".
"Recognition! HOOOOOOO!!!" maybe that's what he'll say when he finds out. But who cares bout this Red Dot anyway?
Jap royal family finally having a son after like 4 decades. Congrats... as if it concerns me.
remember [8:32 PM]
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
bio olympiad : 2nd day
There wasn't a better time to rain than today huh? Nobody turned up for frisbee. @#*! !!! (yells to the sky) "Ya Happy Now???!!"
Still have to return tomorrow for a short training. Spent like 3 hours looking through plant transport and reproduction. Largely on repro. Boring, as expected. I didn't fall asleep. Really.
remember [5:30 PM]
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Monday, September 04, 2006
sniff*
Steve Irwin is gone... No more crazy croc hunter... sniff* sniff*. Rest in peace dude, rest assured the people will not forget you so easily. We shall all put that turtle in front of our MSN nicks. But Really... Stung by stingray? What a totally cool way to go.
Man, i miss him already.
Will someone just let me off?? Even watching The Oprah Winfrey Show at home i'm reminded of her... the segment on Tourette Syndrome... Must everyone have THAT name?
remember [9:43 PM]
Bio olympiad : the 1st day
Bio Olympiad wasn't that bad. Noe doing plant physiology, which is uhh.. boring? I mean, they don't move right? No moving parts= no fun= boring. Training scheduled to end tomorrow... i don't know whether to rejoice or cry. One must alway's try* to stay cheerful. Maybe i'll pretend i didn't know.
"My life's a mess..."
That's an understatement. There isn't enough space on my table to dissect a fly. Not that i'll want to... just an expression. An ant could get lost in there, much less my homework. What homework? Nope, none here, as much as the naked eye can discern. "No sir, i didn't lose my homework, it lost itself. Honest. I didn't instigate anything..." Yeah right, the day any tutor can take this kind of crap is the day... they'll take it.
Independence Day tonight. Must watch. Funny show...
Wind beneath Death's wings as she takes flight. Dark be the desires in our hearts, but it pales against what darkness that is approaching. Creeping, amorphous, writhing and engulfing us. Such is her Red Carpet.
remember [4:03 PM]
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Chio Shoes
Frisbee Pics for 22nd July up on See Kia's blog. I'm lookin' good if i'm allowed to brag a little... Maybe not.
Still can't forget. It really doesn't help when everywhere i turn i see her name. Well, i must at least get out to walk about, grab a bite or two right? Staying home all day makes you smell stale. And mouldy. And mildewy. And... basically "yucks!" >_<
Bio Olympiad training on Mon, Tues, and Wed. Sooo looking forward to it. Really. But i don't have the basics. Must mug. I mean : read up.
Got new damn chio shoes...
remember [8:44 PM]
Some Dinner
I must say, ten years of education and yet i'm still so gullible. Can't believe i paid $25 just to sit in the school field, totally obscured from any view of the night sky whatsoever, and be deprived of the most primary of saticfaction, that of having a full stomach. Well, at least the drinks were almost always filled and chilled.
( Translation: @#*!ing hell, even a 6 bucks meal at Mac's would have been supremely more satisfying. And why the @#*! did the SC get to go for FREE??!! So what if Nathan was there? So what if it was 8-course? When you have 10 voracious little kids like us going after the same plate, it'll be polished in seconds. That is a totally different case with some of those adult there, half eaten food wasted... Why couldn't the organizers take this into account and give us larger portions? @#*!...)
Going to family 3 might just have been my smartest decision yet. Apart from finding out i can't fence (Sophie beat me... *sniff) and that i really sound funny when talking helium everything else was just ...lost.
Too lost in her...even if i only saw her in the PT...
Nearly lost my shoe bag (containg like $150 worth in TCGs) because of that.
But even if it was really lost... i would feel that it's a uhh... fair trade off...
heex... :) :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :) sweet dreams tonite..
remember [12:42 AM]
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Friday, September 01, 2006
Happy Teacher's Day??
Happy Teacher's Day? Hardly. Well it might be Teacher's Day... it might be happy for others.. it certainly isn't here. Those enjoying yourselves ( or enjoyed yourselves ) out there, good for you. Freaking bored and lonely... Don't want to mug no more..
Maybe i could find someone as lonely as me, but that's just wishful thinking. It's only 4 pm, yet deep down, it feels as if it like 3 am. So quiet, so life-less, so say i "Komm, susser Tod..".
Really wish something would happen, something at least catastrophic in scale. Something that could cut like a ray through the darkness, distracting and uplifting. Distract me from this boredom, show me that there's a way out.
remember [3:58 PM]
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