Saturday, November 04, 2006
Retrospective
No, yes i can't sleep. Guess who's fault it is this time.
Mine. Cos i'm dumb. Asinine.
Sometimes.. i wish. Wish that all could be different, but i know i wouldn't want it. It defies logic. Something in which i can find solace, know that i'm still sane, and that it's just that the world spins, not me.
But if logic dictates that it shouldn't happen, why am i sticking to it? Logic, i mean.
One wakes up every morning and finds that yesterday is but a mere memory. Ask:
Did those things really occur, or were they but figments of one's imagination?
Even if others concur, is it possible that you are all stuck in this scam together?
If the near past has degraded into something so intangible, why should we care about those that happened even further back?
So, it boils down to how one reacts doesn't it? Does one carry on without a shred of yesterday in one's life, living only for the present? Does one live in one's past, wallow in past sins? Does one sit in front of the computor at ungodly hours wishing things aren't what they are?
It's soul-wrenching, the truth. Cruel, this world is.
Maybe, just maybe, what i need isn't time to think about it. What i need is that i stop thinking of it. Indefinitely?
So stop teasing. I cannot maintain le..
remember [5:21 AM]
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